Come on Come on

So somewhere between opening day and today this blog became the primary blog. The other one seems to be dying on the vine, and I find it harder and harder to work up the enthusiasm to go through the mental process I need to go through in order to write for that one. See, the other blog isn't the really real me, even though the opinions and such expressed over there are mine, but for that blog to work I need to get into a particular headspace that I'm not as comfortable with as I used to be. Assuming that secret identity used to be as easy as putting on a glove, but right now there's a lot of distance that I'm feeling, and most of my post ideas come to Stray Bullets instead. Even so, I have some attachment to that other blog that's hard to let go of.

I suppose that's natural after putting in four years of effort and writing almost 1700 posts. It's hard to just up and walk away. Plus, let's look at this. I have two readers here that I'm aware of: Guinevere and Colleen. Over there I have about 15, including those two. Now I'm not saying that I want more readers here, because the more people I know are reading the less candid I can be in the posts. Like if I knew Jen was reading this blog I wouldn't be able to discuss all that in full. See what I mean? That isn't a problem with Colleen or Guin, as they're both awesome and above complaint. It's hard to walk away from that other larger audience, though.

Supposing I do stop updating that blog altogether it does make me wonder how many of my ideas there I'd want to import here. I did a lot of posts for that other blog that I'm proud of and happy with, and I came up with a lot of ideas that are worth exploring, too. And there are things like Calliope, who will probably come up when I start talking more about writing here. Otherwise, I don't know. I'm trying to keep up a different sort of discipline here for SB that I never did over there. The other blog is pretty much everything and the kitchen sink, but I'm trying to keep this one a little more pure. I looked through my archives a few days ago and there is a lot of junk back there.

You'll notice I won't mention that blog or my other identity by name. I'll probably remain as protective of my secret identity as Bruce Wayne, just like I'm very protective of this identity over there. Maybe I should just refer to that blog as the Batcave or something.

This same thing happened the first time I launched this blog. I wasn't able to animate both of them at the same time. I can get into one headspace, or the other, but not both at once. It's a real identity crisis.

I have no idea how it's going to turn out.